The news about Bowie this morning was a shocker. It really hit me sideways.
It sent my mind reeling back to when it was easy to find US
cut-outs, with the cartoon cover, of "The
Man who Sold the World". But most especially to seeing him perform “Starman” on
Top of the Pops with Ronno and the other guys. These were important notes from
space and no-one had seen anything quite like this. Some of us were already
Alice Cooper but we wouldn’t actually SEE them until something like 3 months
later.
Forgive me if my recall is sketchy. My granny was disgusted and referred
to him as a he/she. My grandmother would also use a coloured pencil to draw
in underwear on pin up girls on my bedroom wall. Somewhere I’m sure there’s
photographic evidence of this. My formative years
converged with what was perhaps the last great proper teenage music wave, Glam.
I worked in a record store during holidays and at weekends and we sold Bowie records every day. We even sold copies of a record
called "Raw Power" on import that had some involvement from him. I got the first one and a guy called Ziggy from the
auld toon bought the other copy. I can’t recall his real name but
he had the haircut and everything. Easily the biggest DB fan in the
locale at that time.
I’d say I was definitely a fan of his from “Man” up until
probably “Heroes”. "Young Americans" I didn’t really get because it seemed just
like a weak take on Philly soul and I didn’t care for that particular “image”.
It seemed like betrayal after the supreme rock’n’roll crunch of the previous
two albums but in retrospect was just him moving along. Last time I saw him
would have been the "Station to Station" tour. Several years later, nearly 20
maybe, I would witness El Vez recreate that album’s incredible opening mood in
Tut’s, not far from where I saw Bowie.
The Aladdin Sane show at the Edinburgh Empire -
May 23rd 1973 - was the first late night rock show I ever attended.
The record shop ran a bus. My mate Gordon Mackay missed that and took a cab
into the city. It must have cost a small fortune but he didn’t care, he just had to be there. I remember
being very excited at the fact they encored with a version of "White Light,
White Heat".
You see this was punk rock. Before it was co-opted into
whatever it became.
Many folks I know stuck with him though, fine with the
shape-shifting, even with Tin Machine. He did exactly what he wanted to do and
the guy cannot be prosecuted for that. The bigger impression of all this is the
psychological damage of all the artists that played a part of the overall
culture disappearing. The loss of characters in conjunction with a sharp
contrast of one’s own mortality is something that strikes me as quite sobering.
Even although I can’t say I’m overly perturbed. I think it’s the thought of losing yet another connection. In
this case not a friend but someone who definitely contributed to the fabric of what one would or had become. However indirectly.